Gee, I have finals coming up for a whole week starting tomorrow. That is quick..

Alas! My ingenuity will be tested tomorrow. I hope not to disappoint myself, nor anyone else. The teachers appear to be keen about me, let's hope they are right to do that Oo.

Ah yes..

Thus the summer ends tomorrow.

Last friday I *finally* received an answer from my future school and study. As you know or might not know, I am going to do one year of 'high school' again, though this one's for adults. One year to reach for the highest rate available in our school system and pass for it.

What I have right now is the 2nd highest rate available, but with that it is not possible to go to University, which is something I badly want.

Anywho, I received an invitation for an intake conversation and signing up at the school for tomorrow afternoon. After that, I have to see what happens next.. I'm kinda nervous, even though just *some*. Or maybe it's just curiousity to the unknown.

Ah well, I hope all goes well =]


( Your Positive Quality-Test )

Oh yeah! Does anybody know who I could commission for some great art? I'm very much interested in seeing my Winter dragon being done by the professionals.. <.<;

Ofcourse, there's nothing wrong with a good laugh like in my previous post. Still, I feel worried..

As some of you might know, I made my plans for this school year. I attend going to an adult highschool, for one year, to finish the highest degree, making it possible for me to attend any university I want next year.

But I'm worried about the organisation.. It's the holidays and they'd be late with replying (as noted in an automated email of the this high school). The school starts in September, so only two weeks.. I'm really concerned about being in time..

What if I'm not and they disallow me to attend? I'd be blamed. Yes I was late with subscribing, but it was damned difficult for me to find something I want and that is in my reach right now.

I'd be forced to find myself a job, ending up with another 'wasted year'. Hoping that I'd atleast succeed for my colloquium doctum at University in May. But untill then.. gahh...

And what if I don't succeed? Either for this colloquium doctum, or this one year of adult highschool in general? That thought.. is something I really wish to avoid right now.

I never really knew what I want with my life, untill now. It's reachable, possible, and people are supportive and positive that I might succeed at it. But still..

My ultimatum is being able to get into university, studying psychology. If that fails.. I don't know what to do next..

I'm so very concerned about my future.. again..

This I badly needed to get off my chest.

Thank you for reading.. =]

Whoooooo..

Tests tomorrow.. two to be exactly.. MY LAST ONES FOR THE WHOLE FRIGGING COLLEGE YEAR! Don't take me wrong though, I love the subjects of the books I have to read. But.. come on.. Five books? That's.. about 1500 pages of material to study. Sure I would do it, if I only was more serious about it and started on it earlier. Not to mention the oh so many distractions around the house. Oh shoot me. Having read atleast half of it all ain't that bad, right? I mean.. it're only YES/NO questions anyway, in the test..

On a lighter note, to get rid of frustration, I went and drew some more anatomy practice things. It's really great to get better understanding of these things =]

I went over that profile drawing of Winter I did some time ago. And boy, did I spot some major mistakes! Ah well.. I plan on working these out to a higher quality:

- The skeleton
- The intestines (don't ask why, but it's sheer fun)
- The muscles
- The nerve system? (yes, i plan on studying neuropsychology one day, so why not start now?)

Here's what I got so far:

( To save you from multispamming your Friend's page, I hid the picture behind this cut =O )

And now I'm off to bed. Goodnight! After next week I'll be done with college.. Now I hate myself for not having really tried to find a job.

Well now. I made a promise yesterday that I would update my LJ again, so this time I'm gonna keep my promise. No matter *how* tired out I'm already feeling.

Soooooo what's been keeping me busy lately?

Myself, mostly.

Futureplans were in need of adjustments, as I likely won't gain enough points to hit University next year. So I'll give it another try next year in college. Speaking of which, college is going 'alrighty'. It's not that I'm having much difficulty with the materials, moreover I'm having difficulty with myself; better known as procrastinating. I'm growing lazy while I definately shouldn't at the end of the year =P. So I'll need a good kick from behind every now and then. Ah, all will be well.

Then there would be social life. I'm enjoying it. BUT. Some times too much, other times too little. I know it sounds weird, describing it as such, but I don't know how else to explain it.

Mentioning the virtual social life (Msn, Yahoo, etc), sometimes I don't really know where to go with it. There is this growing disinterest, in anything.. a distance building. I'm not as often online like I used to be. But perhaps that's a good thing.. I don't know, I still enjoy it though.

Emotional life is been bitchy to me again, though =| Such malicious pleasure for others. I won't go into detail about that..

Art!

I'm still progressing fairly quick building experience. From that DVD collection I bought almost two months ago (?), about human anatomy, I've run through most of it and might give a proper try at humans aswell. Ofcourse, if I ever were to draw a human person in a drawing, a dragon can't be off too far =P

Ehm, yeah. I'm currently colouring my latest pencil job in Photoshop. I never draw Winter the Dragon that highly detailed, or atleast, remarkably realistic before.. makes me feel proud =]

Last night I've had some vivid imaginations about him, right before I pass out to sleep. Happened to me a few times before. But this time, he appeared as I drew him in this pic, in his new colours, and.. he felt different. His look in his eyes and soft smile were so.. breathtaking.. and enchanting. And he felt so very warm.. so comforting and gentle. He felt so much calmer, it was really wonderful and I wanna imagine about him again =]

Lastly, showing people the flats of Winter the Dragon below. I've already shaded him in and only a background remains. So it won't take too long to view the finished piece =D .. or so I hope.



Winter ain't so cheap in colours afterall D=

Thanks for reading!

Well today happened to be an interesting day.

It all started when I woke up before my alarm, around 7 am. I set the alarm at 9, so yah! Still I felt totally slept out.. but fell asleep later anyway =P

Today has been a warm summer-like day, with the sun shining, clouds keeping the temperature here, all running up to 27 Celcius/81 Fahrenheit. I had two tests for my Psychology study later. One at 2pm, the second at 7pm. On my way in the bus to school I met a long 'forgotten' friend from first classes in high school, and man did he changed a good bit. We had a good talk about things througout the trip, even though it wasn't always easy, because we haven't talked for that long.

At the trainstation we left eachother, and *right* at the entrance of the station, I met another long 'forgotten' friend! Though sadly the talk was short, but gahh, this guy has changed even *more*. All in all, an optimisic experience, giving me a positive attitude for my math test. Yes, math.

When I was in the room and the test began.. I collapsed. Blacked out. No I didn't sit and cry, but I couldn't get a thing on paper down. I just couldn't remember a thing! How annoying. How uncouraging. So after 15 minutes I gave up, and left. Not a change I have made a good score on this test, as I haven't turned in *any* answer.

However.. Fifteen minutes before the test I met with one of my fellow students and she said she's gonna skip the math test since she didn't know a thing (aswell). After a short talk she said that, because in highschool I did math on a high level, I didn't have to do the test! It wasn't needed for me! I was already qualified! So right after I left the room, I walked to my teacher thingum, the kind of teacher that helps you throughout the year, and asked *IF* I needed to do the test. "No, with your highschool level you didn't have to."

Wewt! So what I learned from our school is that.. I can totally ruin a test.. Don't have to redo it.. and still pass!

Positive attitude; welcome back.

Well then I went home again, gave my feet some rest and after a few hours went back to college to do the second test. No, I didn't learn for it. Why not? It didn't have to do a *thing* with psychology, but with the most annoying thing in the world; economics, finances, all those bla bla bla. Work-talk. When people get unemployed what money or finances they can get and all that rubbish that I don't have a head for. But the test was easy anyway, so 50/50 chance I passed it anyway.


^{Minutes before the start of the test..}

After that (9pm already) we had some fun with friends, eat some fast food, wewt, and went back home. Such a nice day, such great weather, and everything at my side. Well, pretty much everything.

Ah, such rambling.. Still I find this day worth sharing =]